Capital H.I.M.
Sometimes we have to go through a lot of sufferings and struggles just so we could taste the happiness and fulfillment we deserve. We sometimes need to let our troubles consume us, think of giving up and allow hatred to rule our lives because that’s part of being who we are. We get tired. We feel hopeless, yet we still need to go on.
There has been a lot of trials lately that almost knocked me off dead. I must say that I wouldn’t want to go back to that state no matter what the prize is. It was the most painful stage I’ve ever gone through and that waking up every single morning is a curse that I would want to be saved from. I have tried escaping, quitting and even ignoring the lowest point of my existince. I searched for all the possible solutions to save me from the mess I was in when I found out that there’s one thing I haven’t tried doing yet - praying!
It helps a lot when you have greater connection with HIM. I have been ruling my own world when I shouldn’t be the king. I have been complaining when I haven’t tried reaching out to HIM. I turned a deaf ear when He told me to be patient. I was running when He asked me to stay. I kept on carrying the load when He was ready to carry it for me.
Through it all, I have already forgiven myself and I have learned to appreciate life’s challenges more. For as long as I have the Big Boss’ guidance, I am going to be fine. I may lose my calmness and perseverance to move on with the journey He has bestowed upon me but He will surely take me there.
I almost lost my mind and the smallest courage I have been keeping to survive, but the Lord has opened another chapter for me to enjoy. I know that there will still be problems ahead of me. I am willing to endure all the pain through God’s guidance. I am now ready to redeem myself and live again.
I just flew in. I got my ID and now a citizen of Panem, Disctrict 3. Lucky I got hired as a technician. Too bad I can’t join the Hunger Games.
My Own Cover of Avril Lavigne’s Remember When
Remember when I cried to you a thousand times
I told you everything
You know my feelings
It never crossed my mind
That there would be a time
For us to say goodbye
What a big surprise
This song reminds me of someone I know. The lyrics speak of what happened in the past. I didn’t know that I would be able to play this using G-D-Em-C chords. My friend would really kill me for not following her instructions. I can’t sing a rock ballad. I can’t find any. This is what I feel like singing. So there.
Wedding Gown: My First Attempt
A friend requested for some wedding gown designs. I made 6 or more pieces but these two are my favorites. She doesn’t really have the plan of wearing them but I would certainly jump for joy if she’ll wear one of my designs. It lacks details because all I’m after is the style.
I AM CAPABLE.
It felt so good to wake up at someone else’s house. It’s a rainy Sunday morning but I don’t care about the rain. Everything’s perfect just like the old days when we would wake up together to prepare for our class.
We had so much fun last night. We laughed so hard and talked about non-sense stuff like we own the night.
While no one’s watching…
Got my planner the other day and I named it Tootchie! Oh boi she’s so fine. I will now start marking important dates. This so handy that I think I’ll use it everyday just like my 2010 planner. Me sho excited. I need to buy a new pen!
Take A Breath And Listen
Hello there rainy afternoon. I had the wrong move of going to work today. I was very lazy to get my ass up because of the unstoppable wrath of the heavens. Here I sit reading stuff about Ulan Bator, the Trans-Siberian railway and the World War II. Every now and then I would do my job but my mind’s out there somewhere flying outside the building. I have finished the albums of Robyn, Duffy and now I’m starting with Kelly Clarkson. It’s one of those days that music can’t even uplift what I feel inside. This is another self-induced breakdown. It’s funny how my mood changes when it pours down.
I said we were lucky ‘cause we were born in this modern-day world where World War II is just a memory, but I have a war with myself that I can’t stop. Everyday I go into this battleground. I fight, yet I give up. I fight again and fall.
I’m counting hours while peeping through the window. It’s still wet outside and Kelly’s singing “You’re breaking your own heart” - the appropriate soundtrack for my afternoon drama.
My own cover of Linkin Park’s Numb
And I know
I may end up failing too.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.
I was asked to do Leave Out All The Rest but that I can’t sing as of the moment because my voice is a bit throaty. The piano sounds amazing that I have to sing along with it instead of the original track. My rendition might not be that good but I enjoyed singing it.
