THINKING

Since it’s the start of the year and I had so many ups downs and downs last year, I am thinking of tweaking my present state a bit. Being sad and depressed, negative and grumpy about everything that’s happening is kind of tiring. I hate complaining because I usually am not that kind of person.

It’s now time to put an end to whatever it is that is tying me down. Maybe I need a new job, a new working environment, a new perspective in life, or change in interests. I need to focus on the things I am good at and runaway from whatever it is that distracts me.

So what’s my next step? I’m still contemplating.

30 Day Song Challenge (Day 4)

A Song That Makes You Sad

You Were Mine ~ Dixie Chicks

Burnt Skin & Burnt Feelings

Burnt skin is what I got from diving into the sea water without a diver’s license sun block. I don’t have a problem with my complexion because it does go back to its normal color after a week or so. The problem is, it hurts – the price I have to pay for using a water-based lotion like I didn’t realize it the moment I used it!

Aside from the fact that my skin is hot to the touch, I am kind of having an emotional anxiety. I miss my loved ones. I miss the beach. I miss the new friends I met and I don’t know when we’ll see each other again. I miss everything that happened for the past three days. I am trying to live my life normally but I just can’t move on with the shoulda, woulda, couldas.

My life’s supposed to be perfect because I am free from work but other variables seem to haunt me. The sunny and almost-Holy-Week-kind-of-weather complement with my feelings.

This burn in my skin will continue to develop for 24 to 72 hours and skin peeling will follow in 3 to 8 days. I just pray that this loneliness will not last that long and peel itself soon. I can take this sun burn but not this desolation.

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I don’t feel like paying another month for my Sun Broadband. Its connection has been very slow for almost a month now and it’s pissing me off. There are lots of internet connections to choose from but I would appreciate any recommendations. Kthnxbye!

LEA

God really loves me that much that He made me closer to you. I found a family in you and you’re one of the reasons why I am enjoying my stay in Manila. He chose you above all people. We both should be grateful for that.

I’ll miss every single moment we finish each other’s sentences with lyrics. Those times when we rack our brains if we forget the title of the song and all that we can think of are the lyrics. I’m so thankful that music’s part of this world. It’s one thing that made our bond strong. Although we share some good deal of choices, it’s one thing that made us enjoy our company. Forever will I not forget the song “Irreplaceable” because that’s the time when we’re starting to like each other. Can I not finish this? I can’t breathe anymore.

Do you still remember how many times we giggled whenever we think of the same thing at the same time or type the same thing at the same time? We have a lot of those and I’ve never experienced that with anyone yet. I guess we’re both of the same level but of course you would want to be the first so go ahead and take the top spot and I’ll be the second.

No one understands me better than you do. No one takes me as I am like you do. I can’t pretend anymore when I’m in front of you because you can see right through me. I don’t want to start looking for someone who’ll do that for me. The real me is when I’m with you. I’ve never opened up to anyone like I always do to you-trash talks, dirty talks, serious talks, whatever talk there is. All the happy moments happened when I was with you and I hope they don’t stop just there. I can’t thank you enough for helping me find me.

Thanks for everything. Please never let go of me ‘cause I’m not letting go until the last man on earth dies.

Signed, sealed, delivered, I’m yours,
Pepe, Pepito, Philipos, Phelps

DYING

I lost my iPod earlier today and I am dying. Gone are my almost 5K songs with album covers and all that. Whatta Christmas present!